Friday, May 15, 2009

I saw myself today...

I saw myself today at Creekside Pool:

I saw myself today in a girl finding her identity in impressing others with a mouth full of profanity and self-glory.

I saw myself today in a girl feeling rejected as her man of last night was chasing after another girl with smaller thighs and a flatter stomach.

I saw myself today throwing my reputation down the solo cup as I tossed another ping pong ball that landed off the table.

I saw myself today putting my strength and value in how well I could flirt, talk, and impress the cutest group of guys in the corner. 

I saw myself today as a failure in a guy whose Dad called on his Iphone to speak about business since I just failed two classes at school. 

I saw myself today in control as I walked up with the supply of drinks for the entire crowd.

I saw myself today embarrassed because I couldn't afford to go out for the third time this week.

I saw myself today glorifying who I am for the humorous activities I bragged about not remembering last night.

I saw myself today ignored by the other girls who have the right sunglasses, suits, and flip flops.

I saw myself today taken for granted as I am bossed to get another, do this, and quit being like this.

I saw myself today having enough of what the world can offer and digging into something so much more reliable, eternal, and more significant.

I saw myself today thankful for a Savior who can meet every need I have ever longed for in others and myself.

I saw myself today finding hope in an ultimate plan that includes my small vapor of a life. 

I saw myself today seeking assurance in a Heavenly Kingdom where no one can steal my joy.

I saw myself today accepting love, compassion, worth, security, and identity in the One who is perfect in every way.

I saw myself today being edified by people I am blessed with who truly care about my heart, my soul, and my life. 

I saw myself today incredibly thankful for an undeserving mercy and grace that is renewing me each and every minute of the day.

I saw myself today broken and hurting for others because I know that feeling of rejection, failure, weakness, embarrassment, pain, and abandonment. 

I saw myself today not boasting in what I have found or I have achieved but what I have been given so undeservedly by the cross.

I saw myself today being stripped and broken so that I may know more of Him and bring glory to Who He is in me. 

"As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of this air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. All of you also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our sinful nature and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath. But because of HIS GREAT LOVE FOR US, God, who is rich in mercy, made us ALIVE with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions-it is by GRACE you have been SAVED."   -Eph. 2:1-5

3 comments:

Ketty said...

love it. creekside pool is a sad place. ha. seriously. you are amazing. wish everyone could know and believe what we believe in. life is just better this way.

Katie B said...

Talk about being transformed! Praying to see it happen in more!! Your heart is beautiful!!

kwest214 said...

ok I am certain that you need to write a book...I would buy it. I love you and your passion. Thank you so much for showing me and the world all of your beauty.